Welcome

 

Blogging is where it all began for me. 

Lot's has changed over the past decade, I have gained a lot but also lost a lot and honestly I still feel a little bit lost. I have been thinking a lot recently about my values, about who I am and what I want to achieve in life and while I enjoy making YouTube videos immensely I do think sometimes writing things down is easier for me as I can reflect on what I have written before it goes public, and make sure what I want to say is coming across the way I want to say it otherwise I can unwittingly find myself in hot water. 

So, where am I right now in life?

Right now I am chasing another diagnosis as my IBS, anxiety, depression, chronic fatigue and chronic pain have all been all over the place and I think there may be something more going on. I have recently handed in my notice on a job that I love which I have a LOT of feelings about but between my health and becoming a full time carer for my Nana who has alzeihmers, I didn't really have a choice.

What are my goals?

Right now I am trying out a few different things to try and just make life simpler for myself and my family. I know that I am incredibly lucky to not have to rely on my carers allowance alone and to have a husband who is able to support us while I become more of a stay at home wife! The main thing is to simplify where I can so that I can also spend some time healing and growing and just finding a way to thrive. I am trying a sort of adapted version of The Organised Mom Method to try and keep the house in order, but also planning in lots of rest time to heal.

I am also reading lots about minimalism and especially Project 333 which I have started to implement and so far it seems to be going well. I am also looking at budgeting, as my income has gone down, reducing my large TBR and also looking at my mental health, especially surrounding my spending.

Looking back at old blog posts, these have been my goals for YEARS but have been overshadowed by chasing a career (nursing) which is now no longer a possibility for me and also diet and losing weight which is no longer a goal I wish to pursue.

What are my values?

I think what it all comes down to is that I can get really fixated on these little goals without stepping back and looking at the whole picture. I can also get bogged down with the internets way of seeing that unless you are perfect its not even worth trying. From the beginning there has always been a few things that I wanted to do and say and I want everything I do to be in line with my values. These I am still trying to come to terms with in my head.